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please ask me for the username/password if you can't already see it. and actually my blog isn't properly up yet coz diaryland is refusing to let me change my blog settings for now so there's nothing there now actually besides the word 'closed'.

will probably be shifting blog, haven't decided where yet coz i haven't got any new template done yet.

The Counselor Idealists are abstract in thought and speech, cooperative in reaching their goals, and enterprising and attentive in their interpersonal roles. Counselors focus on human potentials, think in terms of ethical values, and come easily to decisions. The small number of this type (little more than 2 percent) is regrettable, since Counselors have an unusually strong desire to contribute to the welfare of others and genuinely enjoy helping their companions. Although Counsleors tend to be private, sensitive people, and are not generally visible leaders, they nevertheless work quite intensely with those close to them, quietly exerting their influence behind the scenes with their families, friends, and colleagues. This type has great depth of personality; they are themselves complicated, and can understand and deal with complex issues and people.

Counselors can be hard to get to know. They have an unusually rich inner life, but they are reserved and tend not to share their reactions except with those they trust. With their loved ones, certainly, Counselors are not reluctant to express their feelings, their face lighting up with the positive emotions, but darkening like a thunderhead with the negative. Indeed, because of their strong ability to take into themselves the feelings of others, Counselors can be hurt rather easily by those around them, which, perhaps, is one reason why they tend to be private people, mutely withdrawing from human contact. At the same time, friends who have known a Counselor for years may find sides emerging which come as a surprise. Not that they are inconsistent; Counselors value their integrity a great deal, but they have intricately woven, mysterious personalities which sometimes puzzle even them.

Counselors have strong empathic abilities and can become aware of another's emotions or intentions -- good or evil -- even before that person is conscious of them. This "mind-reading" can take the form of feeling the hidden distress or illnesses of others to an extent which is difficult for other types to comprehend. Even Counselors can seldom tell how they came to penetrate others' feelings so keenly. Furthermore, the Counselor is most likely of all the types to demonstrate an ability to understand psychic phenomena and to have visions of human events, past, present, or future. What is known as ESP may well be exceptional intuitive ability-in both its forms, projection and introjection. Such supernormal intuition is found frequently in the Counselor, and can extend to people, things, and often events, taking the form of visions, episodes of foreknowledge, premonitions, auditory and visual images of things to come, as well as uncanny communications with certain individuals at a distance.

i can't believe 99% of my blog entries are about work.
even though work does take up nearly 99% off my time these days, it's DEFINITELY not worth 99% of my thoughts.

Then, the busy years went rushing by us
We lost our starry notions on the way
If, by chance, I'd see you in the tavern,
We'd smile at one another and we'd say

Those were the days, my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we'd choose
We'd fight and never lose
Those were the days, oh yes, those were the days

i just got rejected by cornell as well....and considering my wisconsin application is really a lost case since they'll probably receive the remainder of my application a few weeks after they've decided to reject me, it basically means i've more or less been rejected by ALL the us unis that i applied too.

ahh. this is starting to feel not so ok after all.

retail therapy anyone???

haha ok but it's really no big deal.

ahhh. spending money on shopping so much more instantly gratifying. you actually get what you pay for. haha.

ahhh duke rejected me as well...psc too!
it's really ok.
but i'm v super irritated now. GIVE ME BACK ALL THE MONEY AND BLOODY TIME I SPENT ON MY APPS LA!!!

ya but really it's ok haha.

ahhhhhhh i'm struggling with my astar essay now and with every word i type i hear my subconscious screaming at me CLICHESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS SWEEEPING STATEMENTSSSSSSSSSSSS YOU FAKERRRRRRRRRRR YOU SUCKERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!
hahaha. i feel like a tortured soul. :)
oh johns hopkins rejected me. ah well. it's ok!

五月天『忘词』
词曲:阿信

嗯嗯 搭啦 我又 忘了
我应该应该应该应该唱什么
我应该应该应该应该怎么作
嗯嗯 搭啦 想起来了
我好像好像好像好像应该说
我好想好想好想好想对你说
在你的面前我就变得很笨拙
就像是一个不断忘词的歌手
我练习过 彩排过
这个时候 却又说不出口
你 你的温柔感动了我
我 忍耐太久内伤太重
在 这一秒我一定要说
就算失败 也不沉默
你 你的温柔感动了我
我 忍耐太久内伤太重
在 豁出去的那一秒钟
却又忘词 我噢噢噢
上一句好像是有关你的形容
下一句好像希望你能答应我
我练习过 彩排过
这个时候 却又说不出口

OMG OMG OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG I WON THE CHANNEL 5 POTO CONTEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHA IT WAS THE FIRST EVER SMS CONTEST I EVER TOOK PART IN AND I WON!!!!!!!!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD THANK YOU CHANNEL 5!!! HEHEHE

so that all the shit gets cleared away :)
forgive the somewhat crude analogy.

i think i look forward to the end of my hsa job coz it seems to signify a change in my daily routine and represents an opportunity for me to actually do what i want to do with my time. but seriously, at the rate i'm going, i'm just going to end up rotting away at home once i stop working.
i wanted to take piano lessons, guitar lessons, sax lessons, do cip, go cycling and blading, read books, listen to music and basically enjoy my free time. heck, if i could i think i would even take up ballet again (HAHAH DON'T LAUGH OKAY)
now i'm doing none of that and i dread going to work everyday and once i'm back home i don't do anything much except struggle with nearly overdue (or already overdue) applications or stone online and kill my eyes at the same time.
what the hell.
i'm tired of using my irregular work schedule as an excuse for rotting while i'm not working.

but i'm also too tired to do anything about it now.
haha. loserrrr.

did i mention that the other useless thing i do besides rotting is ranting?
rotting and ranting.
RIP - rot in peace.